03.29.2009 Sunday Night Stuff...i should b sleeping!

Ok, shhhh, don't tell hubby. I should be sleeping, it's almost, well, Monday! I wanted to post real quick to say all is well in camera land-i should have pics to post soon. But to be honest, my heart is heavy. One of the blogs i follow (McMamma) last updated Stellan is not doing so well and his SVT is not subsiding. Another blog i follow lnked me to another family who is trapped in another state so far from home & their other little one due to pre-term complications and she is barely as far along as my own sis was. And as i sit and marvel at my little niece and all her baby tricks -oh but wait-there was supposed to be 2 nieces, i can't help but feel a bit melancholy. It's gonna be a long night with God i am sure of it. Oh, but i am sure he never tires of hearing from me and my A.D.D. conversations. But there was a good (and rather pointed) sermon today at church about just that. What kinds of conversations/prayers (and how often) are we having with God and are we doing Gods will and living out his plan for us? Sometimes i am just not sure if I am doing His will and heading down the right path or trying too hard to be OF this world and making my own path. And since i think that way i must really not be doing His will for me, right? I constantly wonder why i am not using "my gifts" for His glory. How do i? How to i get plugged in to the right place to use my gifts? Some days i am not even sure what they are any more. Depression and it's many manifestations only serve to leave me more confused..as if i lose little peices of me each day, and i wake up one day going "where am I? What happened to ME? This is not who i am, nor who i wanted to be! How do i get back to ME?" Other days i absolutely know. So what's a girl to do? I PRAY. I pray and i know. I know my purpose, i know HIS will, i know i move on and keep showing my kids HIS love and HIS grace and HIS plan for each of us. And everytime my little warriors pray for someone they don't even know...well then i feel i must be doing at least 1 thing right. So this post is for Stellan, and for Gaines, and for all the families that are hurting right now. Let me, and my family intercede on your behalf, and pray the fervent prayers. Sit back and know that God is the one in control, and our destiny is decided. That all we go through is simply Gods will for us. I know it doesn't always make the hard stuff easier to go through...but those standing on solid ground with God in their hearts can get through anything. And tonite, I will PRAY!

03.25.2009 A Quick Update

Not much time for blogging, so far this week i have had Bible Study on Monday, and a marathon school board meeting that lasted until almost 10pm last night. 2 late nights in a row, plus still experiencing side effects from my prescription reaction, it has been no fun. (nothing major, they just changed brands of the meds i take every day and i got the hives which have made me a crazy itchy mad woman for like over a week!)

Anyway, don't want to leave anyone hanging...so...YES...i got the job. I start next week, or as soon as we can get desk, computer, and stuff in place. I am over the moon excited. It's just...well if i have to work it's better i don't do it with my husband! For so many reasons! And hey i got 3 shirts yesterday on super clearance at Shopko (while i was already in Msla for Bubba's dentist appointment) for 90% OFF !!! Oh yeah-regular 24.99 was 2.49! I paid less than $8.00 for 3 cute new tops. Kind of blew it though when i bought the necklace for $18.00 but accessories are a must have for any wardrobe right? Well anyway, that's the latest and greatest here.
Hope all is well where you are! God Bless!

03.20.2009 An Amazing God

What a day. It began as any other day, run here or there getting kiddos off to school, stop by the store for stuff for a school project. Drag my butt to the office. 9:30am, get to office, message there to call someone, in urgent need of my assistance! What kind of assistance? Ugh, really? I'm not supposed to start work till 10 today...and i thought it was going to be a great day!

At 2:00 this same day, I am sitting in a job interview being offered a dream job (flexible around whatever hours i want to work/my kids schedules) for really good pay (especially in this economy) -well it's based on my productivity but i have a proven track record in this kind of environment! Hallelujah. Just when I think the bank is going to own my house..a door opens. An opportunity. Thank you dear Lord for all you do for me. Can I get an AMEN?!!

I won't know for sure until Monday most likely...and they still have to get me a desk, set up my office, etc...but it looks extremely promising. Not as good as staying home with my kids full-time...but i will do whatever i have to so we can dig our way out of this hole.

More positive news is that I'm either very fortunate to have my meds really working...or it's because it is starting to feel like SPRING around here (some days)...but i am really not feeling as much in despair these days. I owe that first and foremost to God, my loving family, and to my blog world friends who encourage me and let me see into their lives. So i know i am not alone. I am not the only one going through this or that. I am so very Thankful.

I am thankful for the use of my hands and eyes- and to use this computer =)
I am thankful for my health and that of my children (it's been over a year since Bubba has been in the Hospital, praise to you Lord!)
I am thankful i still (for now) have a roof over my head and enough money for groceries.
I am thankful for my friends, who lift me up and encourage me
I am thankful for Christian education and the blessings it provides my family
I am thankful for sunshine
I am thankful for God's word and how he knows my needs before i ask, and is my Number One Provider.

Stay Tuned....i think this story will have a happy ending.

03.18.2009 The Little Man is Turning 5

Where DOES the time go? It's impossible! Stop the spinning clock and let me get off this ride...my BABY is turning 5. Age 5 folks!!!!! Next thing you know he'll be bringing friends over and playing video games till all hours of the night..oh wait..that's my other one-the firstborn. Back to Bubba.


Bubba, my sweet, affectionate, go with the flow, lovable bear of a boy is 5 today. *sniffle* Just the other night i scooped him up in my arms and held him "like a baby", i sniffed his head (oh the smell of Johnsons Baby Shampoo!) and i realized 2 things.....
1.) He's not gonna let me do that for much longer
2.) Someday (real soon) he is gonna be just plain ol' too heavy and big for me to cradle in my arms *sigh*


(Bubba Age 2)

Since he is most definately the last of my breeding efforts (much to the chagrin of my husband) there is some sadness when the realization sets in that i no longer have a baby. With a boy like Bubba I just yearn for him to stay his cute, small, loveable self for like EVER! I love him more than i could even imagine was possible. He's my snuggle buddy.


(Bubba Age 3 - before one of his many surgeries)

Don't get me wrong, i love ALL my children - each one in their own special way. E for his happy self, he was so EASY, never gave me problems, dressed himself, obeyed, potty trained early, no major bumps through the teenage years...ideal child. Ms. Independent (sis) is more of the I can do everything myself including pick out my clothes and dress myself at age 2, smart as a whip and reading at 4, sassy, shoe diva, spirited spunky one!

But there is a special bond mommy and Bubba share and i guess it's cuz he's the baby. But something tells me even if he was in the middle we would still share the same connection. And the best part is, he has an equally strong bond with Daddy. There's just something about his nature..He is just "BUBBA".


(Bubba Age 4)

I am often asked why he has that knickname, he is small-ish, not "hefty" by any means...why Bubba? It just is. When he was small he was 10lbs with this huge head and it kinda stuck. These days it still sticks but it's more about his easy going nature. He's always been, and will forever be our Bubba. If you have known him for any length of time and have ever had the opportunity to get some "Bubba Love" you will know what i mean. He's never met a new person he didn't have a hug or warm smile for. And every time he see's you he can't wait to shower you with the Bubba Lovin'. He's got the big eyes with the great lashes and they just absolutely MELT me.

So no matter how big he gets, i hope to always share the special bond with him. I hope he never gets to old to hug his momma. I hope when he is 8 or 10 or 12 that i can still hug him in public and he can love me back.


(Bubba age 4 1/2)











So tonite, we celebrate his coming of age -the ripe ol' age of 5. I'll post pics later tonite of the festivities...i think there are some Legos in his future =)

Just afew of some Happy moments from this evening!!!




(Bubba opens the SpongeBob Lego's from G MA & Auntie Lynette-BIG hit!)


Some of the completed projects! Sis had to be in the picture-after all-she put together the Krusty Krab Restaurant!


Uncle Lloyd & Darla we are ALL enjoying playing with the shoot'em arcade animals,LOL *note the cat, she kept trying to PAW the moving targets*

03.16.2009 NOT ME MONDAY!

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.


Ok, so for another edition of "Not Me Monday" i can be brutally honest about the following;

I did not on Saturday claim to be at a Bible Study Luncheon just so i could have some girlfriend time at a Mary Kay Makeover. (There was lunch, and discussion about Mondays bible study) No not me, that would be BAD.

I did not let the kids eat cereal for dinner last night, after a late lunch when mommy was just too tired to fix dinner, that would be totally wrong, so i absolutely DID NOT do that.

I did not let the alarm go off OVER and OVER this morning, knowing full well Sis would be late for school...no not me...i would NEVER!

What did you "NOT" do? Head on over to McMama's Blog and grab the Not Me Monday button and tell us your story!