Wow two posts in one day...don't have a heart attack but I finally am able to upload photos again. YAY!
I had a nice Mother's Day this year. They asked me what I wanted to do - or where I wanted to go. My answer is usually the same.
I want to go out to breakfast. Something about having someone wait on ME for a change is oh so appealing!
So we headed out to the big city (Missoula) and I decided on Cracker Barrel. It was busy, but we had 20 minutes or so to be goofy and have fun. The weather was PERFECT.
Is it just me, or do you just love getting to sit in the rocking chairs always outside every Cracker Barrel?
I guess it's just me.
I got an entire morning of my kids cooperating, smiling, and just generally being good.
What this day is all about....being a mom.
Took a picture of my two favorite boys as well. Daddy got new glasses! YAY!
After the nice morning in Missoula, we headed home and I got to have another great Mothers day treat!!
My friend Alisia and I went for a short Horseback ride around our houses. I rode her (very well trained) horse Nala, and she rode her other horse Lucy. They did pretty well considering it was their first trail ride of the season this year. It was HOT, so the ride was short and sweet. Neither of my horses are "ready". They both need a bit more training before we can just jump on and go. I didn't get any pictures of the ride, but it was fun.
Overall it was a great day. I relaxed after, took a nap, and read. All I could ask for.
Plus I just love that my kids brought home plants and homemade cards from school for me.
Hope yours was good as well.
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
05.06.2012 Never thought this would be a "Family Day" activity
Moving to Montana nearly 10 years ago was culture shock in its finest.
I wont lie.
There was a HUGE adjustment. Primarily, the weather was the biggest adjustment. There are "seasons" here. REAL SEASONS. We experience them all, but in all actuality it feels like we have WINTER and SUMMER. The other two seasons are just the "rainy" and the "windy" in my mind.
The S.L.O.W. pace was the second biggest culture shock. People drive slow, talk slow, walk slow, and are just generally not in any kind of a hurry. I spent the first 30+ years of my life knowing only "HURRY". I admit I still feel the urge to hurry. Hurry my children, hurry in the car. Some habits are hard to break.
Some of the easier things to adjust to are things like; Genuine people, Gorgeous Scenery, and Small town mentality.
But I am a "CITY GIRL" at heart.
I try to "fit in" and embrace all this country life has to offer (though "Pioneer Woman" REE I am not). I have LAND. I have CRITTERS. And we have GUNS.
A simple fact of life around these parts. Guns are for hunting.....Shooting is fun.
I grew up thinking guns were for "killing" and thugs had guns, and there was nothing fun about that!! I had no other frame of reference. You don't hunt in L.A. (i guess unless you are a gang banger). I thought GUNS killed people, PERIOD. Now I realize that PEOPLE KILL PEOPLE. It has been the hardest change / adjustment I have faced - without a doubt.
My husband grew up hunting, and being around guns. It was normal. It was accepted. It was life. You want to eat, you hunt. You need a gun.
Where was I going with this?
Ah, a few weeks back Bubba went with Daddy to visit Grandpa in Wyoming for a few days. Daddy was busy out and about actually "working" so Bubba and Grandpa spent some quality time together. They ventured into Grandpa's huge garden, they puttered around the house, and then Grandpa let him try out his .22 rifle. Grandpa is a skilled marksman, and got trophies and awards for his shooting in the Army. So they set up some targets (cans and whatnot) and had some fun!
It seems Bubba was a "natural" just like his Grandpa and his Daddy. He did exceptionally well.
So when he got home Daddy bought him his own Rifle.
That's the way it works in Montana. A prouder moment was not to be had. That boy tried them all out. We actually got him a .22 that is still too big for him. The smaller sizes he will outgrow by next year - and a gun is quite an investment. So he will need to grow into his gun. He got a cool scope mounted - and even though he cant get right up to it, it's just a matter of time. (For the "details" kind of people.. it's a Marlin .22 we got the composite shaft vs. wood because it's less maintenance..that's about all the gun talk I know)
One fine weekend (May 6th) we took our boy out to the local "shooting Range" and let him have at it. He (and sis for that matter) had been there before a few times with Daddy using Daddy's guns. I went too (another culture shock). Wanted to make sure my boys were being safe and see what all the fuss was about.
It looks like that. Rows of stations where different people can stand. We had the whole place to ourselves at that time of day.
And we set up some targets....
AND THEN THE FUN BEGAN
He knows how to load the bullets into the magazine. (It is BOLT ACTION - so he can only shoot once, then has to move the bolt to expel the used bullet and get another in the chamber from the clip. Safest for young shooters!)
Trying to get the height just right
Studying the target from his scope
When we were nearly done he got to try out Daddy's pistol. I even shot a few rounds with the pistol. It is quite "empowering" I should say. I felt confident I could defend my family should the need ever arise.
With smiles like THIS...............
This momma is sold on this new family activity!! He was so excited he practically was skipping by the time we left.
Oh, and he shot real well too!!!
I think I have adjusted well, dontcha think?!
I wont lie.
There was a HUGE adjustment. Primarily, the weather was the biggest adjustment. There are "seasons" here. REAL SEASONS. We experience them all, but in all actuality it feels like we have WINTER and SUMMER. The other two seasons are just the "rainy" and the "windy" in my mind.
The S.L.O.W. pace was the second biggest culture shock. People drive slow, talk slow, walk slow, and are just generally not in any kind of a hurry. I spent the first 30+ years of my life knowing only "HURRY". I admit I still feel the urge to hurry. Hurry my children, hurry in the car. Some habits are hard to break.
Some of the easier things to adjust to are things like; Genuine people, Gorgeous Scenery, and Small town mentality.
But I am a "CITY GIRL" at heart.
I try to "fit in" and embrace all this country life has to offer (though "Pioneer Woman" REE I am not). I have LAND. I have CRITTERS. And we have GUNS.
A simple fact of life around these parts. Guns are for hunting.....Shooting is fun.
I grew up thinking guns were for "killing" and thugs had guns, and there was nothing fun about that!! I had no other frame of reference. You don't hunt in L.A. (i guess unless you are a gang banger). I thought GUNS killed people, PERIOD. Now I realize that PEOPLE KILL PEOPLE. It has been the hardest change / adjustment I have faced - without a doubt.
My husband grew up hunting, and being around guns. It was normal. It was accepted. It was life. You want to eat, you hunt. You need a gun.
Where was I going with this?
Ah, a few weeks back Bubba went with Daddy to visit Grandpa in Wyoming for a few days. Daddy was busy out and about actually "working" so Bubba and Grandpa spent some quality time together. They ventured into Grandpa's huge garden, they puttered around the house, and then Grandpa let him try out his .22 rifle. Grandpa is a skilled marksman, and got trophies and awards for his shooting in the Army. So they set up some targets (cans and whatnot) and had some fun!
It seems Bubba was a "natural" just like his Grandpa and his Daddy. He did exceptionally well.
So when he got home Daddy bought him his own Rifle.
That's the way it works in Montana. A prouder moment was not to be had. That boy tried them all out. We actually got him a .22 that is still too big for him. The smaller sizes he will outgrow by next year - and a gun is quite an investment. So he will need to grow into his gun. He got a cool scope mounted - and even though he cant get right up to it, it's just a matter of time. (For the "details" kind of people.. it's a Marlin .22 we got the composite shaft vs. wood because it's less maintenance..that's about all the gun talk I know)
One fine weekend (May 6th) we took our boy out to the local "shooting Range" and let him have at it. He (and sis for that matter) had been there before a few times with Daddy using Daddy's guns. I went too (another culture shock). Wanted to make sure my boys were being safe and see what all the fuss was about.
It looks like that. Rows of stations where different people can stand. We had the whole place to ourselves at that time of day.
And we set up some targets....
AND THEN THE FUN BEGAN
He knows how to load the bullets into the magazine. (It is BOLT ACTION - so he can only shoot once, then has to move the bolt to expel the used bullet and get another in the chamber from the clip. Safest for young shooters!)
Trying to get the height just right
Studying the target from his scope
When we were nearly done he got to try out Daddy's pistol. I even shot a few rounds with the pistol. It is quite "empowering" I should say. I felt confident I could defend my family should the need ever arise.
With smiles like THIS...............
This momma is sold on this new family activity!! He was so excited he practically was skipping by the time we left.
Oh, and he shot real well too!!!
I think I have adjusted well, dontcha think?!
Thursday, April 26, 2012
04.26.2012 BASEBALL ! ! !
(p.s random picture...we don't have our uniforms yet)
It is officially here. Well technically it has been here, and been practiced for the past few weeks. Games start next weekend.
My ringtone on my phone is officially changed to "Take me out to the Ballgame" in honor of this season in my life. Hard wooden bleachers, concession hot dogs & peanuts, dirt flying in your eyes, and the sound of the crack the bat makes when it comes into contact with the ball are a staple in my life.
Oh how I love Rookie baseball.
That is not to say that my son is a star. He misses the ball more times than he hits it. He often times can be seen kicking dirt, staring at his cleats, "adjusting" himself, wearing his mitt as a hat, or - heaven forbid - picking his nose instead of paying attention. He is still at the age of learning the fundamentals and not expected to catch every ball, hit every ball he is pitched, and spit sunflower seed shells with accuracy.
That doesn't bother me in the least.
I love that team spirit is alive and well. I love that what he lacks in inate ability he makes up for in "hustle". I love how cute he looks in those polyester pants and new cleats. I love that every season he is with a new bunch of "old friends" wearing a different hat and shirt. Last year he was a "Dodger", this year he is a "Mariner". Though he'll never be a "Brave" like mommy would prefer - I love it just the same.
I especially LOVE how I was not asked to be chained again to the responsibility of Concession Mom and some poor other sucker has gotten that baton passed their way. Our team has been asked to man the concession booth a mere FOUR times this season. FOUR. Not FORTY like last season where I was there for Rookie, Minor and Majors games - weekdays, weekends. The never ending drama of coming home smelling like hot dogs and smoke....or where dinner time consisted of concession food and an abundant supply of Laffy Taffy. Whatever I did, right or wrong, apparently paid off. So I can officially enjoy all those things I love about baseball - with my bum planted firmly on those blue, hard, wooden bleachers.
So I think I'll buy me some peanuts and cracker jacks and enjoy the ride! Afterall, Softball season is only a month away!!
Oh, and to my sis that hates the new "updates" in Blogger - I wholeheartedly agree. Where the heck did my separations in paragraphs go? It just runs it all together. The preview button sucks, and well... i guess i shouldnt complain.
Friday, March 9, 2012
03.09.2012 My Cup

(I couldn't resist...he's so cute!!)
I grew up a "Cup Half Full" person. You know the type. Always an optimist. Always knowing there is good in everything.
Sometime in early 2002 that part of me dissapeared. I wasn't even a "Cup Half Empty" person - - there just was no longer a cup. Not on purpose. Not because I couldn't see good anymore. Not because I didn't desperately WANT to be that person. Truly, because I couldn't make myself be that anymore.
It's called "depression" and it transforms you into someone you yourself don't even recognize.... If you have ever seen the "Cymbalta" commercials they are so accurate it is scary. (LOL)
I think Cup Half Full people are also called "perky". Which is hilarious - since it is a coffee reference.
I was also labeled "perky" when I was growing up. I always had a smile on my face. I never thought it was negative. I embraced it as part of who I was. I guess if you aren't a perky person...people like me could be somewhat annoying. (Or so my friend and neighbor tells me)
The funny thing is....as I got pulled deeper and deeper into depression, it was one part of me that was out of reach. I would always ask my Dr. - "When will I ever feel like 'ME' again?" Try another kind of medicine....I would feel better....but still never like "me". Try something else....but I still never felt like 'me' again. There is no way to put into words the clouds that you live within when your brain decides to "alter you" through depression. I had to try really hard (honing my acting skills) to portray being "perky" or "happy" because that was what was expected of me. What previously was a natural part of "me" was lost. No one wants to be around someone who is tired, mopey, angry or negative all the time. (No matter how much they love you - if they haven't 'been there' they just expect you to be able to "snap out of it") I can't tell you how many times I wondered if I would EVER be able to feel again.
I can't tell you how much of a relief it was when *gasp* just over a month ago I literally woke up and felt "changed". Happy permeated through every part of my being. Nothing mad me sad. My smile returned. I can't explain it. I had not changed medicine. My vitamins were the same. There are a couple things I tried to pin it on;
1.) I got about 5 pairs of new (new to me) jeans that fit great and felt good
...Who wouldn't love to say a pair of jeans changed their life! LOL
2.) I started drinking Chai Tea
...I was sure the caffeine - that I could never previously tolerate - was the "magic trick" that made me all better.
But the funny thing is - I know it was neither. I felt so good I decided to wean off my meds (without consulting my Dr.) and then stopped altogether.
Bad idea.
So I started back on. So I guess for now I still need them....but i feel GREAT. My medicine alone has never allowed me to feel great. I could just survive the day.
BUT NOW?!! The cup seems to always be Half Full.
As a matter of fact, my cup runneth over!
The very strangest thing, is that we are financially in a very BAD place. My husband is stressed beyond belief. He snaps. Medically he is in a bad place. I am supportive, I am strong, I don't snap back. I can only see the good. I know the Lord will let me bend - but never let me break. I can feel it. I know it will be okay.
I haven't "known" in so long it is very foreign to me.
But what I do know is that for TODAY I feel like singing. All day. Everyday. And that smile...well it just won't go away.
So if you need a dose of "perky" in your life...I'm your gal! Even though my literal cup (of Nonfat Vanilla Chai) is empty - I see and feel the possibilities of the days ahead.
And it feels good.
Thursday, March 8, 2012
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